I am seriously upset with myself and I'm a horrible person. I have this great guy in my life and I'm so worried about these shallow things. And I'm going out on dates with these other guys. And I flirt with anything that talks. And I held hands with this guy who is my friend and maybe it's not a big deal to anyone else but to me it's a big deal. And work is so overwhelming. I hate working 7 days a week and changing from working during the day and sleeping at night during the week to sleeping during the day and sleeping at night on the weekends. It sucks sooo much. And having a full time job and going to school full time is frustrating as hell and I don't know how so many people do it. I'm tired and pissed off and I just want a moment of peace. I don't want to feel guilty or unhappy or weirded out or disappointed in myself for just one minute. I don't care or know who reads this I just needed a venting place away from everyone I know.
